When I started my business, I wanted to give people an experience. I didn’t just want to shoot and burn, but really give my clients something to look forward to, get excited about, and enjoy as much as I did.
I wanted sessions to be booked in person, over tea and coffee, and great conversation.
I wanted to have an amazing time at the sessions; creating portraits, and having fun with my clients.
I wanted to deliver images that made my clients so overcome with joy, they said, “I love it!”
I wanted to build relationships with my clients.
I wanted to send birthday cards to the kids, anniversary gifts to my brides and grooms, and baby gifts to my belly mamas.
I wanted my clients to have a beautiful portrait experience with the images to match.
And somewhere, I lost that vision.
I don’t know if it was the pressure to have outstanding work. Or maybe my desire to make everyone happy. Or even the longing of being recognized in the photography community as a truly great photographer, and not just a “mom with a camera” who shoots and burns.
It’s been a little over a year since I’ve started my portrait business, and although that isn’t much time, I feel like I’ve been around the world with all the experiences I’ve had during this journey.
The more I tried to fit in, the more I lost myself and what I wanted my business to stand for.
Tough times reveal who a person really is. And making it this far has been tough– to say the least. But you know what would have made it easier? Staying true to myself and the vision for my business.
Is my work the greatest out there? I wouldn’t say so, but it’s not too bad for someone who’s only been at it for a year.
Can I make everyone happy? Highly doubtful. In the meantime, I’m going to focus on how I can spread happiness through my photography.
Will I ever be recognized as a great photographer in the photography community? Who knows. But I’ll die trying.
I’ve come to the realization that this is who I really am, and I have no reason to be ashamed or embarrassed. And I’ll never get where I want to be trying to tag along for everyone else’s journey.
After a year of trying to figure this whole photography business thing out, I still don’t have all the answers (and trust me, I’ve searched high and low), and I probably never will.
I will, however, get better with time. I can promise that.
I’m done trying to do this to please everyone.
I started this because I had a vision. A vision to make time standstill in 1/250th of a second, so that one moment could last forever.
So that someday, a child could sit in their grandparent’s lap, point to a photo and say, “Who is this?” and hear story after story of all the amazing things accomplished in their family.
I fell in love with photography because it was the easiest way to share a specific moment in time with people.
Everyone knows it: a picture speaks a thousand words. And those words can be anything the photographer wants them to be, all with one click: BOOM. Magic.
It’s that simple to me. And I never should have complicated its simplicity.
Temporarily, I lost touch with myself. But after some reflection, I’m pleased to say I’m back– and I don’t plan to let anyone tell me what I see ever again.
Enjoy these behind the scenes snapshots of me doing some of what I really love: BEACH MATERNITY SESSION!